I've felt a lack of direction and focus lately. I strongly resist structure and routine and yet I thrive within them. I have an idea of how I would like to be living life, but the route towards it has felt hazy, overwhelming or even impossible at times.
In January I did an experiment. I took the whole month off from glasswork to see what flourished in that space. I wrote a list afterwards of all the positives and negatives from that time - there were 27 positives and only 3 negatives. It was the best January I've had for years. I've done a lot of reflecting on this since.
To have any chance of creating the life I want to live I need a clear picture of it first. I need to believe that it is possible and trust that it can happen. Then I need to take steps towards making it a reality. Listening to my intuition and following those internal nudges towards joy and passion are vital. Fear seems to be a constant companion so I'll take it along with me, I just won't let it lead the way. No more than I have to anyway. Perhaps when it sees that things can work out ok it will start to relax a bit.
I need to keep this simple. A goal is a wonderful thing to have, but the journey there needs to be enjoyable too, otherwise I will be sacrificing my days in pursuit of a future life (which of course never comes). To live the life I want to be living, daily, there are things that need to be attended to in order for that to happen.
So I've created 5 categories for my day:
This is a loose structure for a resister of routine. They can be done in any order, some will obviously take up larger portions of the day (i.e. work), but I must do at least one thing for each category each day. It also leaves room for spontaneity.
I'm making a simple planner to fill in daily, so that I won't be overwhelmed, and these small steps will hopefully help to create a balanced, joyful life and free up space I need for new life to emerge and flourish.
I'll share more on the categories another day and maybe show you my planner when I've made it. That's one of today's jobs. I feel quite enthusiastic about this. It will be interesting to see how it works for me - I'll let you know!
What works for you?
New life in bud...